Trying to get Enough money let's see what I can do

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The feeling nobody seems to know

The feeling is overwhelming and annoying and I am so tired of feeling like this. I just want to go back home and curl up and never come out of my room. I just want the thoughts in my head to stop. I want to cry. I want to scream I want to go away. I don't know how to stop it I am tired. I don't know what to do. I wish it will stop.

So I am back

I may not full heartedly believe and what people would call a God so far whatever it is or whoever it is has kept me alive I have severe depression I'm willing to admit to it it hurts a lot and my mind just doesn't wanna shut off but I meant I have problems and that I do need help on my friends are by my side these days and whatever you call it God God is help me through a lot every time I'm scared that I might do something wrong I just beg for forgiveness over and over and over again eventually thoughts to Subway like they were never there when we stay quiet down I'm not the smartest cookie of the bunch saw the brightest crayon of the Curt but IME I'm still trying to figure out what me is but I am me.

What can I say it been a while

It has been a while since I've have been in the mood to write anything. I mean working where I work I feel like I am a useless drone that people insist on abusing over and over again. I an a person is what they don't realize I have feelings and I am starting to loose all hope for all man kind