Friday, December 31, 2010

i hatre this world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how do people go on living in this stupid ass world. all i want to do is learn what i have to learn to become an art teacher and then move far away from here. This town is not anyones dream. This was the worst holiday 2 weaks of my life. And really people if you don't like this then don't read it thank you.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

WHat is .........................

close to the holiday and not happy about it........Oh by the way LOVE GLEE it is so tuching.But it is not like that in real life sadly. I wish i could see the gleem in peoples eyes like i used too. Thes days it just seem everyone hate the world as we know it. They say it will snow 4 to 6 inches i so hope so because i don't want to go to school at all.

                          What is Christmas? To me its seeing my parent off of work and seeing grandmas cooking. To me it is the smell of sweets and old people and ther feeling of being safe and sound with the familey. To me it is word of joy and happynes. To me it is food one day and sleep the next.it is not know how much snow will be the next day. It is wanting a snow white christmas. Its loving the people around you nomatter how much you hate them. Christmas is not about the present but the presents are a plus. It about living life with the people you know and love. It is about not forgetting the past and setting goals for the future.

            Life seems to go by so fast when you get older. Sad really because i would like to stay this age forever, but we all know that no matter  what we must always get older.    :(

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

school year almost over

ok i am so done with this but it was kinda cool. But dude i hated the booooooook. I guess this year was ok even though i can't remember most of it and yes i know that is bad but deal with it. I have gained and lost respet for people this year. I guess thats the way of my life. I look around know and wait for some one to say so meaning for or nice, but all i get is stupid remarks and it drives me insane. But when i go home to my livingroom i look around and the place i want to be is right ther with the same anorying people. I wish i could go back in time but i know that i will never be able to do that. A wish is a drem ur heart makes that u know will never come true. If my dreams came true you kn ow how alsome that would be. it be like the story that i am trying to write become a movie.




the only thing that i wouldn't miss would be the schoo being torn apart and the leaking ceallings. i love that there is so much to think about nd so much to see but i wish i could see more because if i see more the more i can talk about. The more i talk about the more i want to draw the beutiful things that i talk about. i know that may sound wired but i guess u would have to truly know me to understand what i am trying to say even then u won't know what i am saying.

Monday, May 24, 2010

to many great teachers in the world

yeah hate the book "the great gatsby" it sucks so much. guess you really don't care huh? well i have one more jurnal after this and then i will be done. Mr. T your class has been cool this year not perfect but cool. i would bake you a cake but u wouldn't be able to eat it sorry. today was ok. I am exempt from every exam this time and it is sooooooo cool. oh my moms b-day was this weakend she said it was a great b-day. i wish i could pay u back for all the things u have tought me this year. u tought me that its ok to speek whats on the mind-and that its ok to ask questions even though i don't ask, lol-you helped me when i needed it and i thank u for that. THats why this blog is for u and the last blog will be to dis u sorry lol hope you enjoy the rest of this.







Why God Made Teachers


By Kevin William Huff


When God created teachers,


He gave us special friends


To help us understand His world


And truly comprehend


The beauty and the wonder


Of everything we see,


And become a better person


With each discovery.


When God created teachers,


He gave us special guides


To show us ways in which to grow


So we can all decide


How to live and how to do


What's right instead of wrong,


To lead us so that we can lead


And learn how to be strong.


Why God created teachers,


In His wisdom and His grace,


Was to help us learn to make our world


A better, wiser place.


i really don't believe in god that much but its because of people like you that i try to.






If I Could Teach You, Teacher














If I could teach you, teacher,


I’d teach you how much more


you have accomplished


than you think you have.


I’d show you the seeds


you planted years ago


that are now coming into bloom.


I’d reveal to you the young minds


that have expanded under your care,


the hearts that are serving others


because they had you as a role model.


If I could teach you, teacher,


I’d show you the positive effect


you have had on me and my life.


Your homework is


to know your value to the world,


to acknowledge it, to believe it.


Thank you, teacher.














By Joanna Fuchs


the thing id if i could teach u i teach how much i have changed because and trust me i have thank u for all that u have done and i hope that you actually read this even though the spelling is bad i hope u like the tribute

Friday, May 7, 2010

hey hey hey lost a friend

i have now lost my best friend because she lost my trust and if i can't trust a person there is no reason to be their friend. The bad thing is she was the only person i have trusted in 5 years. I wish i didnt have to be this way but i guess things change for the better or at leats i hope so. Most of my blog have been about the bad well the rest of this one will not. I sat outside yesterday and looked at the beutiful sky and thought if there really is a god then he would have sent a sign to show that i am not alown.

i looked at the birds and thought how great it would be to fly. I looked at the flowers and thought how great it would be to be that beutiful. Nature just seems so calm and so relaxing. I wish life was just simple but it just keep getting more and more dificult each day.i love the way people get happy when someone says hi or when someone starts a conversation.i love it when teachers teach you somthing that you will never forget. I love it that everytime i watch anime or cartoons i seem to smile and zoon out to another world. i love that whenever i lose one friend i gaine another

continue by starting with what makes me happy.Drawing cooking and spending time with frends is what makes me happy. Again i hate people but if a person has the balllllllssssssss to come up to me and state that they want to be friends or enemy in the first place then i give them some respect and a hellow and goodbye every now and then. I don't like student teacher because they suck a lot no afens but i just don't like them. I love to help little kids. i like writing little notes. I have really bad memory.
i love to have a friend that i can trust but i really think that will never happen. i love to party i love to put things together. i like to make people smile when they are down. I want to learn a lot of thing before i turn 30. i want to teach some one a life long lesson. I never want to have kids but i would adopt them. I love animals no matter what. I hate that people ignor me every time i try to say somthing and then when i have nothing to say thats when they want me to talk.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

long day wow wow wow

What a day to start off with i hate this school. The people are stupid and i can't get past the thing that every person i know is so jugdemental. I really hate people even thow i keep saying that i don't think people get the picture. I HATE U PEOPLE. that means stay away from me and leave me out of ur drama. I love pins so if you want to you can buy me some i really wont mind. My story still has not gotton anywhere i keep correcting the old stuff so i can't add anything els to it. you have to wounder sometime why we live. At least i do. I don't believe in god dont get me wrong or get mad at me i just don't believe in the things that he soposadly did. i belive in gost and demons and angles but not god sorry.
But i wounder why we live because sometime it feels like we are a pon in a persons life and they can move us where ever they want. I for one thing do not like being a pon and second thing i don't like being moved at all i like to stay where i am and not not not move at all. i belive that there might be gods and godeses but not a single god. i know that sounds wired but sorry i just that kind of person.
today you asked us who we were and i didn't get to write that much and i am sorry. But i can continue by starting with what makes me happy.Drawing cooking and spending time with frends is what makes me happy. Again i hate people but if a person has the balllllllssssssss to come up to me and state that they want to be friends or enemy in the first place then i give them some respect and a hellow and goodbye every now and then. I don't like student teacher because they suck a lot no afens but i just don't like them. I love to help little kids. i like writing little notes. I have really bad memory.

i love to have a friend that i can trust but i really think that will never happen. i love to party i love to put things together. i like to make people smile when they are down. I want to learn a lot of thing before i turn 30. i want to teach some one a life long lesson. I never want to have kids but i would adopt them. I love animals no matter what. I hate that people ignor me every time i try to say somthing and then when i have nothing to say thats when they want me to talk. Well that all for today got2 b----o---u----n---c---e like tiger and pooh

Monday, April 12, 2010

bike fest was alsome !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So much fun on spring brake. Bike fest was so cool i love it. I have so much work to do and i hate it bit it is life. people are so intresting theas day i mean i look around and i see people that are so intresting and it makes a part of me smile. Then i see the stupid people in the world and then i want to cral in a hole and never come out. Like i said bike fest was alsome there was so many alsome motercycals there and the art work that was on then was amazing. There was some stunt people there that where out of their mind. But all together it was cool. I got a lether vest and it is real leather my dad got one too and i got a cool neclace.




Trying to do the rough draft for the paper but not getting so far. I saw someone i havent seen in a while today and it made me smile. Thehy found the last four miners frome the cavein the other day my prayrs are with the famileys and i hope that they can go on. I saw two of my teacher from RCCC saterday that made me smile too they made a diferance in my life and I hope that they know that. They helped me believe that i was a someone and not a nobody they never gave up on me even when i did i am glad. WELL got 2 B---------------O-----U---N--------C-----E like tigger and pooh

Saturday, March 27, 2010

What is love i wounder and how do i get to wounderland?

What is love i wounder? I mean we speek as if we really know what it is but i realy think that we don't know what it is at all. I mean there is so many movies about love and so many storys it make people wish that there was a love that would last for all time. I mean it is so stupid that kids in school think that they have found there love and yet again it could actually be the real thing. There also so many songs that speek of love but some of the song are so sickaning. I really would like to know if there is such a thing as true love forever and for always. Have you ever asked yourself a question and you could not answer it at all? Then it bugs you to death that you don't know the answer and then you ask other people to find the answer to find that they don't know it eather. Well then I ask you WHAT is LOVE?

I think that i lost a day today i did nothing and yet i did everthing. I watch so many movies and it made me want to go back in time or fall though a whole to wounder land. Wounderland what a world to be in. I wish i can fall into a wounderland of my own but i want mine to have Pirates and mummys and gypsies and freeks and other intresting and wild people. Yes I am strange and I wish i can live in my dream forever because my dreams seem so much more intresting to me. I have dreams that i never want to wake from because i fear that if i do wake that i will never have the dream ever again and that the day will be the worst ever. I really like this blog because i can talk to myself and i look back and amazingly i laugh at myself because i am so weird talking tomyself on a blog. I am glad that you started something like this becaus it does help me in so many ways and makes me think. Not just to think about me but what thing mean and how not to fight but talk to myself and calm down when i am mad.

Monday, March 15, 2010

hate love there is a big line between this

Today is so not fun. I am not used to the time change infact i hate it and the person that came up with it. I finished rewriting my notes and this blog is the last thing i got to do so yiphip heray!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT.......I really don't like people at all. I hate people. Everytime i say it people always want to know why. So I will tell you why. People are always rood, hateful, disrespectful,or just plain stupid. they just don't give a **** about other people and that is one thing that tik me off.Its like they really want to push my buttens and get hurt.




well i am not the only one having a bad day. You mister T need to get used to the time change too. LOL. LOL. And so does my mom. She wont tell me what happened tody but i can tell it was bad. She i not talking much but when she does she is mad.Well this isn't going to be as long as i wanted it to be sorry-GOT2 B----------------------O----------------u------n-----------------c-----------------e like tigger and pooh

Oh one more thing you are never alown

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

HATE...............HATE...............HATE...........

Tuesday March 2, 2010







Today I had the first part of the writing SOL. I think it went OK but I wanted to take longer. I kept missing lines when I was reading it made me so mad. I had a fight with my dad this morning; he had to make such a big deal out of nothing. He said that I should ask to drive more. Then I told him the truth that when they come home one of them is always in a bad mood. Then he said I am just making up excuses. I hate people and barking dogs. I wish I could just go into a room with my friends and not come out for two weeks. I just get tired of listening to peoples problems nonstop.






What’s on my mind today? Well how about hating tests and people that talk during test or, people getting mad at you because you are taking to long on the test. Another thing I hate today is barking dogs. I hate people that just stand in the hall for no reason at all. I hate that no one actually cares about what I say even thou most of the time I am right well that is all the ranting for the day. So GOT 2 B------------O--------U-------N----------C---------------------E like tigger and pooh

love..........................

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

sick

i am so hungry and sick. I have been sick for five days now and i am tired of it all. You know all people ask you when your sick is are you ok...............well of corse i am not ok i am sick. Do you really want to go there people........ Well i am not just tired and sick SOLs are next week and to a point i don't think i can do it. I hope it comes quick. I am now not hungry because i had dinner. It was so good. I know there is some people out there that don't care.




Well sorry to say but i am one of those people. I know that it is bad but oh well i do not care that much anymore. i really dont really know wat els to talk about amd it is kinda weird just rambling on and on.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Odd day

Today I finally had an odd day at school. WOW! It was ok but again not much of an English person. But today was not bad at all I had art today and love it. It’s been about 2 weeks since I had art class. I have a lot of home work well not a lot a lot just about 3 more assignments that’s all. I should be done soon, I think. So who hates guys that brake up with you and go out with someone 10 times uglier that they don’t even like. That is the stupidest thing ever. Defiantly when the person you broke up with in the first place loved you so much that they’d do anything for you. That just is not right. And now that she wants him back he rubs it in her face that he broke up with her. So not cool at all.


You know what’s funny is that people get on facebook just to be on facebook. And I am one of those people. Right when I get on the computer I go strait to facebook. Even at school not good at all. But I guess it’s just a habit. I don’t like they way people look at other people it is like they are from different planets it is so wrong. I mean not a glance but when some one just stairs at you like you had a sign on your face that says look at me I’m an idiot. It bugs me so much I just want to smack them. You know what else I hate is people talking when one the teacher tells them not to talk and two is when you are taking a test now that is messed up. I mean I want to learn but I can’t when there are like five people talking at a time all around me. I really would like to learn but people are so rood even when you tell them to be quiet they will start talking louder I hate it. But the world goes round I guess I have to deal with it.

So to think this is my third blog wowzer its great. Oh! Today it snowed then stopped then snowed then stopped I do not like the snow or the cold defiantly when I have classes in the trailers. Classes out in the trailers I do not like at all because I am always cold all day and I can’t get worm. That’s what happens when you school is under construction and budget cuts. And talking about the budget cut they shouldn’t be making school budget cut because we don’t have enough money as it is and that’s not good. That means cutting teachers and more students to a class and there is to many as it is. Plus that means teachers get a smaller pay check and they barely get any as it is. Well that is all I got on my mind today. Got2 b--------------o----u--------n-----c---e like tiger and pooh.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

V-day

I really don’t like V-day because most guy will brake up with you right before it and then right after it they want you back. Because they don’t want to get you something I mean come on guys that is bad. But sometimes I don’t blame you some girls want everything. Me I just want to have a lot of chocolate and a Dr. Pepper and snuggle up somewhere worm. So how do you like the weather I think it suck. It is to cold and I am tired of the snow. If we miss any more then the school will make us come on a Saturday and that would suck so much.




I notice something about people today. People that say they are in love really don’t act like it. They seem more like off distance friends and that’s just a little sad don’t you think. I was watching a couple at a restaurant and the man just seemed like he was trying so hard to ignore the woman. For a while it looked like she was talking to a brick wall. It seemed so sad and it made me laugh for some small reason I thought to myself if that was me talking to him I would have slapped him silly just so he would listen to me.



I love the way that stores advertize Valentines Day just so they can get customer to by more junk for their sweet hearts it seems vary interesting. I mean all my dad did is give my mom more junk that she probably will never see again after a week. But that is not my problem at all because today I am on facebook and MySpace just playing some games and doing nothing all day. What a joy. Well I got2 b-----o-----u------n--------c-e-like Tigger and Pooh.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

first

Starting a blog that is not for school is not what I expected but here we go and give it a try. Today is Saturday the 13th and the day is not over yet. Today I found a song that actually made me stop in my track and listen no words just music. Just plain music and it made me think about things I don’t know who will read this but who ever reads this I hope you understand what I am talking about. Music, Music, Music, just the sounds makes me wonder. It makes me wonder about all the different kinds and sound and how fast or slow a song can be. I love music I love it so much that I have to listen to it just to go to sleep. I know you may think it is weird but it is like it is a part of me. Think of it this way to me music is kind of energy that keeps me going. And no I am not talking about rap. To me rap is just talk not a song I can dance to.

I am not just a music lover but I love anime too. Yes I just said anime or some people might call it cartoons but to me it is not it is a form of art. Yes art. I am an art fanatic. I love almost every kind of art. It is all so unique just like people. But the thing is I don’t like people that much at least most of them that I have met so far. The people that I have met so far just seem like jerks and so stuck up. It just gets to me and soon it makes me start to hate people. I tell my friend’s everyday at school that I hate people and they just laugh. I don’t blame them at all it is funny and sometimes they agree. Well I guess that is all I got this is the first blog so hope whoever reads it like it.