For once

For once I want to be someone's first pick. For once I want to be loved for who I am not what I look like. For once I want to know someone's got my back through thick and thin. For once I want to know that I can be loved. For once I want to know that I can fly even though I fall. I want to know that I am someone. Because these days I feel like I am no one. For once I want to be the pretty girl. Because I already know I am crazy and caring and hopeful. For once in my life I want to be free from judgment from pain from it all. I just want to see what some other seeing me. A good person a kind person someone full of laughter and joy. for once I really wish please someone just to say you know what I'm here and you're safe and you're okay and nothing else will go wrong. for once I just like to hear someone really wanting to be by my side . for once I want to never be tired of going to work and love it. for once I want to wake up and be happy that I'm alive. for once I want be appreciated. for what I do just for once. one time is all I ask for. But I guess that day will have to wait.