hey hey hey lost a friend

i have now lost my best friend because she lost my trust and if i can't trust a person there is no reason to be their friend. The bad thing is she was the only person i have trusted in 5 years. I wish i didnt have to be this way but i guess things change for the better or at leats i hope so. Most of my blog have been about the bad well the rest of this one will not. I sat outside yesterday and looked at the beutiful sky and thought if there really is a god then he would have sent a sign to show that i am not alown.

i looked at the birds and thought how great it would be to fly. I looked at the flowers and thought how great it would be to be that beutiful. Nature just seems so calm and so relaxing. I wish life was just simple but it just keep getting more and more dificult each day.i love the way people get happy when someone says hi or when someone starts a conversation.i love it when teachers teach you somthing that you will never forget. I love it that everytime i watch anime or cartoons i seem to smile and zoon out to another world. i love that whenever i lose one friend i gaine another

continue by starting with what makes me happy.Drawing cooking and spending time with frends is what makes me happy. Again i hate people but if a person has the balllllllssssssss to come up to me and state that they want to be friends or enemy in the first place then i give them some respect and a hellow and goodbye every now and then. I don't like student teacher because they suck a lot no afens but i just don't like them. I love to help little kids. i like writing little notes. I have really bad memory.
i love to have a friend that i can trust but i really think that will never happen. i love to party i love to put things together. i like to make people smile when they are down. I want to learn a lot of thing before i turn 30. i want to teach some one a life long lesson. I never want to have kids but i would adopt them. I love animals no matter what. I hate that people ignor me every time i try to say somthing and then when i have nothing to say thats when they want me to talk.