to think

             To think that things are gong to be OK is something that most people wish for but i find out that everyday is a surprise in itself. I am starting to understand that there are a lot of  strange people in the  world not just me. I have also come to realize that i have to tell myself i am beautiful first before anybody else because if you don't tell yourself then you will never believe it when it comes out of someone else s mouth. Yesterday before my boss ~~~~~ tells me good morning she looks me straight in the eyes and i Quote "You are beautiful Brittany"  then walks away with a smile on her face. Now why cant guys say that because that not only made my day but also changed how i look at myself a little bit more. I was truly moved by my boss and the complement made my day worth it. Guy only talk about buts or shall i say ass and boobs and that is so not appealing trust me.   Yes i know i have a big ass its a little obvious so you don't need to tell  me about it. And yes my boob are big and jiggly but that doesn't mean you have to point that out and stair at them. Yeah girls do it too but that is not all we look at or at  least all the girls i know don't do that. I rather be noticed for my wacky personalty and since of style the my ass and boobs. I rather someone fall in love with me because i am just what they need and want in their life. I am a good person and i am not stupid. I am a fast learner and I like to get along with anyone but the first time you disrespect me we will have problems from there on out. When i have a job I work on it till its done the same with people if you need my help i will help you till the very end or until i can no longer support you i that way. So why do you people like to bring others down. All through high, middle and Elementary school i was called ugly and stupid and not worth it.  Even my own mother has called me a mistake and so i have always had the attitude that i may not be good enough for all the people i want to help and love. But my boss and a few friends have given me a little bit of a new perspective these past few days and it feels good. I just wish  the guys i liked were like my best friends and my boss.