so today was a big headache going to HR just to tell them that i am supposed to be in training. i don't think i have ever hated someone other then my mother so much until today. In my training today i realized that i will have my work cut out for me which scares me a little. I wonder if i will make it. It is  a lot to learn . I wonder if i can do the things they want us to do. it worry's me so. But the day goes by makes me sad that thing have to change but that is the world that we so call know and love. I kinda wish i was a pet. If i was a pet that means no bills no jobs and you love your owner with all the love in your heart. To tell you something else i want a new job something that i will love. something that kinda sets my heart free. not sure what that is yet but i am working on it a little each day. I also thought of something my new job requires a lot of walking around so maybe i can lose some weight. i have so many things that go though my mind at night that  it makes it hard to sleep these days.  But when i dream i dream the weirdest thing you can ever imagine. like you know the movie "Jane Eyre" or "Braveheart" i dream that i am there right bye those people and it feels so real like i am there but not there. Those people don't even look like the ones in the movie. Which make it even weirder. Sometimes i just dream of being in my room when i was little talking to my imaginary friends but  in my dream they are real. Sometimes when i take a nap in my car before work i dream of the weirdest work related dream. it could have a coworker in it or just the job its self ether way its a little weird. I don't mind all the strange dreams to tell you the truth. it helps me escape the real world every now and then.well i think thats all for now at the moment ...................